all i need is a kickstart...

yes..i need it badly..now..i,m kinda lost..damn..dunno y..aku xth ape lg yg aku cari...now,my life is kinda perfect..i've money with my own business,a house,a gf..haha..a new one..and plus,i'm drummer and i've a band..nape aku lost ek??mayb aku just been carried away by the environment here..i dunno which one is my goal and which is my motivation..sometimes,the motivation can distract u..mmm..mayb i know which one is my goal..but then,i've no strength to take a damn hard first step..mmm..only god can help me..i know i can do it..just wait for it..btw,i really need my kickstart badly..